06.25.25

blah... :P 12 am post just for the hell of it. currently sitting in bed listening to k-pop as i ruminate on some thoughts - a lot has happened in the past 2 weeks and its boring to go over any of it, emotions are BORINGGGG and STUPIDDDDDDDDDDDD btw nmixx's know about me is a super good song. i think i have a migraine but its whatever. i want to talk about manga, ive been reading a bunch since the beginning of the month and i don't regret any of it! so far i've read Nichijou, City, Helvetica Standard, Azumanga Daioh, Yotsuba and Goodbye, Eri. all are great! ive been having a good time so far with each series and have a fair bit to get through still. im currently reading toilet-bound hanako-kun and death note and i really enjoy both, though hanako-kun is much easier to read for me TT. death note's story is too strong for me to read multiple volumes a day but i have really enjoyed reading it so far, even if im only 2 volumes in. i wanted to finish another series before the month ended, so i might go ahead and do toilet-bound too since i can probably knock out at least 4-5 volumes a day - most realistically 3 but i LOVE the art-style so much, its very unique and the series also scratches an itch i have for monster of the week/romance jargen i didn't know i could have. i should probably read more stuff like this - maybe cool on the collecting though im starting to run out of space on my shelf, in addition its also starting to break the bank a little. that's fine as its nothing i haven't dealt with before but MANNN it's starting to bother me a little when i have a few things to take care of before anything else. that's fine, I'll live. it's going to be okay in the end, it always end up being so. 

ugh sorry i got distracted by something - im back to writing now though. im currently laying in my bed and i might read another volume of toilet bound after this - my head is absolutely killing me though, the migraine got worse i think. i wouldn't be surprised but it would suck if im not able to read it tonight but that means i have more to read tomorrow so i guess that's good. i should do something tomorrow that'll improve my mood and not make me feel... whatever this is. i feel uncomfortable somehow, not sure. i wanna write more but idk what to write really - so ill end it here before i start repeating myself.

keiichi arawi collection

new blog

i am so bad at keeping blogs. i love blogging and always will but i am awful at maintaining them. i guess it's because i always have other outlets to write so i always opt out for them because they're "convenient," such as tumblr and my own personal journal. i love to write nonstop slop because its just how my brain works so im always finding a new way to do it, whether it's a new blog or a personal journal (which reminds me that i need to write in it at some point this week) but its also difficult to just come up with stuff to write ALL the time. i have never taken a "relaxed" approach to blogging which is why i always fail in some way or another. i always get too worried about tags and labels or something similar which always handicapped me. i always post on tumblr without tags so why do i care if this blog has one? easier navigation? lame. anyway, i'm off of work for a few days and i hope to finish CITY from Keiichi Arawi. im only 4 volumes in (out of 13) and its really cool. im more into Nichijou though, great read and im super excited to watch the anime whenever i get the chance, which should be the next few days because of no work. for once in my life im not really worried about much, im usually too in the moment with my fears and worries to actually stop and be comfortable but for once im in the exact opposite scenario, i mean i still have problems, mostly with myself, but theres nothing that's too in the way. that's pretty cool, im not used to that type of stuff happening, i can finally relax for once. its pretty early in the morning as im typing this up so im not sure what to do for the rest of the day once this is wrapped up, maybe read manga but reading 3 volumes takes up an hour and a half so if i read at say like, 8:30, it'll be 10 am by the time i'm done and even then i still have a LOT of time on my hands to do stuff. i also haven't read much manga as of late because of work so i should probably get on that today since i have no plans or anything similar going on. i need to stop planning on getting into stuff, it never ever works out properly because it feels like im forcing myself to do something and that never ends up fun regardless of what it is, i dont wanna live my life like that, y'know? i ended up reading nichijou on my own without forcing myself into it and it was amazing!! i love that series so much, same thing with Kaguya-Sama: Love is War! and Oshi No Ko! im so glad im having a manga phase its so cool. im finally reading a lot of what ive been wanting to (sidenote: aka akasaka is an amazing writer) and it feels GREAT and LIBERATING!!! ive been wanting to feel something like that in a while so finally being able to in a way that makes me happy is so cool. one of my favorite things about it is that i can sink hours into it and it would feel rewarding because im reading something, regardless of what it is. i haven't read anything cohesive in like 5 years so it feels exciting to finally read stuff again, especially to this extent. im feeling pretty good about today, im planning on doing nothing today so hopefully its fun. i need to fix this blog up a bit so im going to go do that, it looks ugly the way it is now. 

also look, my keiichi arawi collection right now!!